I'm nothing like people my age never was never will, Perhaps it was the time where I was following instead of leading?, I was trying to figure out if maybe just maybe life would be easier behind a group of shadows & well eventually a few beat downs from parents set me straight & Well now I'm leading but when I say "Leading" Im still trying to figure out who is following me ? Im not cool enough to be followed ? Whatever the reason may be just know this When I make it & I will, I'm going to finally relax mentally,physically,emotionally,etc. but then again I always want more whenever I get what I WANT ? So is there ever a "resting" point in my life ? Perhaps when I sleep but then again life continues in my sleep.... Life is crazy & whats even more crazy the people in it. I know im not the one to judge but I do a shit load of judging its like people have to be the way I want them to be otherwise I want nothing to do with them so being my friend only means you lose a part of YOU warning you in advance but heres the Irony I know whats wrong with me (talking about my flaws) only because I hear it all the time & I do NOTHING to change it ? Even when I know its wrong, The term " Cant change everybody" is true to a certain extent because Im not the same person I was few months ago I mean seriously just 2 months ago I finally decided what I wanted to do with my life ? & Months before that I was wasting precious time making short term riches when i really wanted more than what was on my plate so with that being said I change all the time so much that I look in the mirror & ask "Who the fuck are you? " As far as my heart I still have its still attached to me so me being an asshole is normal believe me, I mean seriously how can you expect me to be content with any of you ? The people I truly cared about moved on with their life's & forgot about the one person who changed their whole perspective on life itself, Am I asking for an apology ? Or am I seeking attention ? Might be both..Im not hurt either just wanted to let you fucks know How I feel. As far as Love goes Im still in battle with it I dont understand it not even with all the experience I have it evolves even greater every time we meet so I never know how to truly approach it so I question it often & those same questions are the same reasons why I came to a conclusion I'll end up alone ? But then again people show me Love constant so how can I be alone ? Its because deep down Im afraid of opening up my world ? & people will take everything out of context & try to ridicule just about everything just so I can match their perspectives but me being the biggest stubborn human on earth will probably turn the cheek on the right answer only because I dont agree with it...