I've put so much thought into myself that sometimes ME is all I think about these day.

Not in a sense where I don't care more of a " Whats the next chapter ANGEL" 

I can't live with myself If I'm constantly doing the same thing I just can't live that way 

Theres something in my body/soul that pushes me to do better and that push hasn't gone

away since my 20th birthday it just resides in my mind constantly pushing & pushing

I admire It I mean most people don't have someone "pushing" them & for me to have

myself push me is a self proclaimed blessing. 

I never really figured out Life and what I stand for, I know people expect me to be

SOOOOO great and sometimes those expectations is the reason why I go through

a depressed phase and just push everyone away till I can cope with myself.

I'm not saying I'm going to be a loser but don't rush me these things take time

but time isn't on my side it never was ! All time does is waste my time (Think about it)

This summer definitely is a soul searching summer.

I just hope Angel is happy with what I become.

Well how else can I truly speak my mind ?