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Church & me don't mix. on a non' disrespectful way, I do more of " talking back" to GOD then actually praising him. for example through the whole service instead of praying I was questioning his existence & all his morals. Is that Bad ? but then I got deeper into it... If he didn't want me talking to him in such way he would change it, due to the fact he made me sooooooooo they say. I got nothing against GOLDY folks it's a cold world, People have to believe in something.